Vampire Chick

resa is gone

• ^{ive been :( for so long that i dont think i can remember how to be otherwise, ive written quite a bit of poetry, but im not too happy about it, it doesnt please me, not like some of my others, whats wrong with me, i think ive lost my inpiration my will to be me, its gone all gone, now im just dull and boring, i cant find the will  to be me :evil: this use to be me now :?: this is how i feel, :cry: :oops: :x :shock: 8) :arrow: :arrow: :arrow: :arrow: wow, i see things in a perpective that ive never had before, no meaning to life no meaning to be me, to be authentic, no meaning to anything, im not depressed so what the fuck is wrong with me, maybe im just bitching too much maybe i should just sit down and die, maybe its just all over, resa is over gone and now i am once again the girl with the name i was cursed with, the name that has scared me, im just what i was forsaken to be, just another name, just another tittle, just another nothing, it all goes back to nothing the nothingness inside, why must i be this, this that i have despised for so long, nothing do defferentiate nothing at  all the sorrow swallows me now and the darkness takes over, a darkness that frightens even me, even the innerworkings of my own mind, if it still remains as it once was. goodbye i say to her, goodbye i wish to one day meet you once more, but the real question is will i then remember you, will i still love you}